The Adventures of an ENFP Christian Girl

I deserve to win IKEA vouchers worth RM2,000 to makeover my room because my mother thinks I'll never get married if any guy happen to see this. I'm petrified! Please relief us of our anxiety and make me marriageable material. Vote for me and make my dreams come true! :)

IKEA Go Clean Your Room Contest: Lee Sook Kuan's room

As mentioned I went to Nepal for a mission trip last month. I know I'm delaying the report again (SORRY!) but for a quick share I'll show you the video I made for the mission report night last week.




The report (and more pictures!) should be ready by next week! :D

Labels: Missions, Walking The Walk

Colours. They are everywhere. On your clothes, in the sky, your ipod... Ever heard of a story told based on colours? Told by the creator of colours?

I went for the special show of Paroimia at FGA KL today. It could have been another play like the ones I enjoy at KL PAC. But no, this was different because...

My non-Christian parents had agreed to come watch it.

I didn't know what I was feeling sitting in the hall with my parents. It was like an emotional cocktail- nervousness, anxiousness, excitement and happiness. All mixed up into a weird concoction that reduced talkative me to be as quiet as a mouse.

"You're very quiet." Mom nudged and handed me her tumbler. "Want a drink?"

All that emotional cocktail was enough of a drink for me, but I took the drink from mom and had a sip.

I tried to pray but I was too nervous, so I spoke in tongues under my breath.

The show went on a wonderful showcase of dance and action. I held on to my seat so tightly, as if I was sitting on a roller-coaster. The show, acted by the people of the youth church which I have gotten acquainted with when I was at camp displayed a very artistic and creative side on them. After experiencing the same adrenalin rush from a watching show at KL PAC, I am immediately convinced that Paroimia was AWESOME.

After the show, Pastor Dorai came up to give a clearer explanation of Paroimia. There was a call for the congregation to respond to accept Christ as their own personal Saviour. He ended in a prayer, the sinner's prayer for those in front and whoever who wants to have Jesus in their hearts.

I closed my eyes and rubbed my sweaty palms, praying. A thousand thoughts were running through my mind about my parents. Should I ask them to go out too? Should I accompany her to go out? Should I do this, should I do that... until tears started to roll down my cheek in a steady stream.

I heard my parents repeating the sinner's prayer.

It was really difficult to explain how I was feeling then, really. Like another emotional cocktail, only a different and more pleasant concoction maybe.

As the worship teams played Lord I Give You My Heart, my heart rejoiced with overflowing gladness and praise.

I believe with all my heart that something's working within my parents' hearts. Something great's going to come out of this and something's great going to happen to this family of mine. I hope I continue to show the light at home by the way I act and react.

Oh, thank you, God and the people who made Paroimia possible!

Labels: Church, Family Matters

Dear Future Husband,

I'm thinking about you tonight, will you be thinking of me too?

I don't know who you are, or even know if there will ever be a "you", since circumstances has gotten me a little discouraged. But it's fine, I'll be okay.

It's funny how I am sitting here on my bed and actually thinking about you- how you may look like, how you may sound when you laugh, how you may react to things. I can't help thinking if you'll ever find me attractive in anyway. Since I do not stand up to the world's standard of beauty, I hope you like my personality.

I hope God is keeping you safe, where ever you may be right now. May He bless you as much as He has to me! I pray you'll be a man who is constantly seeking His heart and love Him above all else.

Since we will be together for the rest of our lives, I pray that I'll keep myself for you and only you. Never looking for other attractions that would displease you and God. Even while we're together, we'll never forget the One who has brought us together. Let's continue to build our lives and future family with Him at the center of it all. Serve in a ministry He has called the both us to and encourage each other when times are tough. Rebuke each other in love when we have to and I'll try my very best to keep us happy and make you laugh everyday. I'll learn to cook your favourite dish if that's what it takes. :)

I pray that as we go on with life with you when we're together, I pray that I'll be patient and full of understanding when things don't go the way it's supposed to be. I won't lose my temper on you and hurt you in any way. I'll learn to give and take and not always having the ME mentality. I will always cater to your needs and support you in all that you do.

I'm not very good with expressing myself sometimes, forgive me when I confuse you. I never mean to cause confusion because I am already confused enough. I'm sorry if I can't be perfect in many of my ways- I can be pretty clumsy at times. I hope you'll see the best of me and at the same time, I want you see the worst of me. Actually, I want you to see me. I will not put on a mask to hide my ugliness.

I can't wait to meet you! As I am here, pruning and trimming the grass to beautify my garden like Song of Songs says, I hope you're preparing yourself on the journey to come here to see my garden. I sure hope I get the garden ready for viewing when you're here! I'm gonna need God's grace, LOTS of it. Let's do our part and let God fix the right timing. :)

I'll be praying for you tonight. Whoever you are, good night, my dear.

From, Me- your future wife.

Labels: Hearts and Roses

Note: I did this on FB, thought I should just post it here too.

10 years ago I...
Was 12 and sitting for my UPSR. I remembered I crazed yo-yos and eventually picked it up as a hobby. LOL That was also the year I was starting to learn more about Christ and was actually reading the bible (in Mandarin, that time).

5 years ago I...
Was 17. Sitting for my SPM, which I screwed up, big time because distractions. I not only screwed up my chance to join law school, I would say I screwed up my relationships- including my relationship with my teachers, schoolmates, parents and also God.

3 years ago I...
Was 19. Doing my Diploma in Mass Communication (Journalism) at TARC. Made some really good life-long friends (and enemies, sigh) and changed my viewed about Malaysian politics. Began to pick up building my relationship with God from where I left off and He spoke in several occasions. Was VERY overwhelming.

1 year ago I...
Was 21. Celebrated my 21st with my family. Had some relatives over at home but was warned by mom not to mention that the gathering was for my birthday because grand aunt had some sort of pantang about attending people's birthday party. She'll get sick, apparently. I got a RM700 single bed and some nice camera gears as presents from my parents. I also began realizing that God is preparing me for missions by putting me in the education line. Also realized that radio ministry is ACTUALLY part of missions. Ha-ha.

So far this year I...
I'm going for a mission trip to Nepal. Really exercising my faith by emptying my bank account just for the trip. And God has proven merciful and full of grace to me by giving me a new job during this time of economic downturn with a better pay AND less working hours! How amazing is that!?

Yesterday I...
Was complaining about not having enough time to complete the freelance product photoshoot for my aunt's friend, who is now my client. I mean, honestly, how to shoot 50 bangles and do post processing on each photo in just 3 days? But she was okay with it and gave me more time. Thank God!

Today I...
Went to work and hugged some really lovely children. They brighten my day. :) Then went to church for worship practice. Had a hard time playing the bass with my fungal-attacked pointer. But it was all good.

Tomorrow I...
Will be going to church in the morning and look forward to experiencing more of His goodness. After service I will shoot out to Ampang to purchase a new camera bag for traveling purposes then back to church again for BM cell.

Next year I...
Don't know what's going to happen, honestly. But I plan to travel to Atlanta, Georgia to attend Passion Twenty Ten. Was soooooooo blessed by the team when they came down to KL on 3rd August 2008. It was truly a night I'll never forget. I hope God will provide me to go. :)

3 years from now I...
Also don't know what's going to happen. I would be 25 by then. Hopefully getting married to the man God has planned for me to be together with for the rest of my life, or at least engaged or maybe having a boyfriend. This man, needs to be God fearing and always puts God first in his life. A man of vision and dreams for God, have a heart for missions (like me) and loves adventures. Someone to work in a ministry with.

5 years from now I...
Would like to be a mom already. I would be 27, and mom had me when she was 27! It's only natural to hope for that too. :D Serving Him with husband faithfully in where ever He has called us to. If I'm not married, I'll still be serving Him, in where ever He wants me to be.

10 years from now I...
Would like to be able to share my life experiences, to encourage the younger generation and to tell of His goodness and grace He has poured out to my life. Living a life abundantly by His grace and love. Hopefully I would have grown so close to God and I'd be able to hear even more clearly.

Labels: God is Awesome

It's been so long since I last update y'all, my dear readers (I'm not sure how many of you now since this place has been stagnant for a really long time).

Life has been great, though it has not been a bed of roses along the way, but God has been good in ALL circumstances.

If it's ever news at all, I'm only quitting my current job next month. Meaning, March will be my last with this current company as a teacher. Sorry Alicia, I didn't tell you about leaving this time around, I just wanted to be sure about leaving before telling.

I'll be moving to another teaching job with a kindy this time. Yes, still with the education line. It used to bother me as to why I got into the education line instead of media since I graduated from journalism school. But this time around, God assured me about this path in education as I'm preparing myself for a mission trip to Nepal- I'll actually be TEACHING to the children at a slum school there!

I've always thought I've taken the wrong path by joining the education scene- which is not in line of the Christian radio station I've always wanted to start. However, after further researching and talking to a lot of well-experienced adults, I began to realize that radio is actually part of missions! So in a way, God was preparing me for missions using education and probably radio later!

Sometime ago last year, my church had a team of missionaries to the Philippines. They came back with a report of a missionary there, apart from pastoring a church, he also runs a morning radio program for the poeple in the area to hear of The Word. I wonder if this is what God is bringing me to, but this is certianly EXCITING!

So as I was saying about this mission trip to Nepal, it's happening from March 14 to March 22. A week of cross-cultural experience with people of the same faith and honestly, I CAN'T WAIT!

Slum schools, rescueing women from clubs and pubs, saving street children of Kathmandu, ministering to children at the orphanage, meeting new people, seeing the Himalayan mountain range at Nagarkot, etc. etc. etc... I'm in for the experience and looking forward for God to WOW the team!

Do pray for me- the new job, the mission trip and oh I forgot to tell- my little wishful thinking of joining Passion: Twenty Ten next year at Atlanta, Georgia. Hehehe, don't know if I'll ever get to go but I'd love to. :D I'll go if God has made it possible financially and bringing me to the right contacts. I can't go alone from Malaysia! Wanna join me? :D

I'm just so EXCITED! Moving on, full speed!

Labels: God is Awesome, Walking The Walk, Who says I don't like my job

I wrote an emo post but deleted it because I took a break from writing it and went to read the papers.

I felt so much better after that- the political situation is sadder than I am! Hah.

Anyway, the political situation here in Malaysia is going down the drain with our economy. I don't know what's right and what's wrong as according to our laws and I wondered if politicians, especially young, single and females ones, can still have some form of private life after becoming a public figure.

Yea, you know who I'm talking about.

Hello, my dear politicians. Can y'all please stop all these nonsensical power-seeking and party-destroying work and start looking into creating more jobs, more projects and ways to bump up our economy?

The civilians who VOTED you into power expects you, yes you, dear politicians to do something. They are losing their jobs, pulling their kids out of colleges and not being able to bring food to the table while you're sitting in your chauffer-driven Lexus and paying people off with millions of our tax payer's money to join your party.

If it's ever news to you, we're in no mood for a party here.

It seems like all you care about is thinking of ways to barge into people's private life and take photos of people sleeping, snatching the state government over by force and appoint new MPs and have them banned later etc. etc. etc.

Thank you for providing sensational news and providing more jobs for news people by doing all that. So thoughtful of you.

Why not start taking care of the civilians? The middle-class who makes up the majority of your voters? Time to walk the talk now and prove yourselves worthy of our votes. How about lowering housing loans/ car loans/ business loans interest rates? Impose more taxes on alcohol and cigarettes to discourage consumption, do without and encourage a healthier lifestyle? I'm no big-time analyzer and adviser but I am sure you get my drift.

Please, just stop making the country we all love into a joke to the world.

Labels: Politics

Actually, before Jeremy Duke decides to tag me, I was tagged doing the same thing on my Facebook by Alicia Wong. So I am going to just copy the one I did on Facebook and maybe modify a little bit.

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog/Facebook note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

1. I love Jesus. I'm serious.
2. I'm sick of my job. (Note, not the kids)
3. I've always wanted to be lawyer and teacher (which I currently am) since I was a little girl.
4. I love photography. Portraits are my favourites.
5. I haven't been on an airplane.
6. I know someday I'll be part of something big- like starting Malaysia's first Christian radio station.
7. I really really really want to make #6 happen! (But I really don't know how)
8. I love Starbucks but they are incredibly fattening and wallet-unfriendly.
9. I used to say I can't dance, but after some dance practices at school proved me wrong.
10. I would love to be a Christian recording artiste some day.
11. I once dream (as in the kind of dream you get when you're sleeping) that I was worship leading with Chris Tomlin at a Passion Conference in a stadium full with at least 20,000 people just raising their hands and worshiping Jesus. I get overwhelmed every time I think about it!
12. I want to be part of the Passion team someday.
13. I will work towards my goal and ambitions.
14. Doing missions has always been my passion.
15. I have a problem with cussing.
16. I wished I am more financially stable.

I've already tag 16 people on FB. So I'll be nice on this one.

I've handed in my resignation letter to my boss today. So with that, I'll be officially jobless from February onwards.

Honestly, I am FREAKING OUT.

I really hope I've heard Him right about quitting!


Oh God, please give me Your peace about this. Let me be still and know that You are God.

Labels: My Life is A Drama, Walking The Walk, Who says I don't like my job

Only one word to describe my new year's eve- overwhelming.

I'm not sure if I am able to tell you how was it like accurately, but I'll try.

I sat listening in wonder and astonishment as Auntie Chewy was telling the church of a testimony of her mother's death that at night at our Thanksgiving Service. The story of how she was comforted by God in this season of grief through a song that was sung during one of the Sundays in church.

The song was Let My Words Be Few by Matt Redman. I lead worship that Sunday.

Being slotted into the monthly worship roster was new to me and every time I see my name on the slot for worship leader, a sense of fear would somehow cripple me. The fear of not being well prepared enough, fear of people criticizing me when I don't do it right... and everything else I could think of that may not be necessarily true.

I felt if ever I were being judged by worldly standards, I would be deemed as a failure.

And normally when I need to decide on the songs for that Sunday, I would just put in any song that comes to my head after I prayed. Many times I thought it's just me simply deciding on the songs but no- God showed me again that it was Him who decided on the songs for me.

That night as I listened to Auntie Chewy, my heart was filled with thanksgiving-God, in His grace and mercy, has used the time I lead worship to minister. It's something I know not achievable by how well the team played and how well I sung. It was Him. All Him. All glory and praise to Him.

This experience has strengthen my faith, and God has such a good timing to do so- on new year's eve. :)

This year is going to be a great year, because Jesus is my God.

Labels: God is Awesome, My Life is A Drama